The End

Conclusion wise, I don't really feel there is much to say. In all my years of school this is the only English class that's ever really been any fun for me, I love blogging, it's a good practice for journalism on my part. I've looked back on all my old blogs and i gotta say, my words changed quite  a lot over the year and the emotions were up and down all the time, it was crazy, first I was excited then i was bored, then I was sad, then i was really angry, and after that, really depressed. Now I am just tired, tired of school tired of all the thinking and stress from all the year, I look back and I see a younger person still learning how to deal with things, now I look at now and I see someone who's shell is just barely starting to crack.

For me, this blog was an experiment, to see how I could use my own voice and mix it with my writing and I found that I find a writing assignment much more enjoyable when I add a little bit of "me" into it. My quite comes from Hilary Duff because I couldn't think of any other songs that would really match.

"I've been so wrapped up in my warm cocoon
But something's happening, things are changing soon
I'm pushing the edge, I'm feeling it crack
And once I get out, there's no turning back" - Hilary Duff, Metamorphosis

To me, this class was an adventure, much different from the rest of my classes, it was class a I detested, but found intriguing all the same. I really hate reading books that aren't of my own choosing, it's harder for me to read something i find boring, hehe.

P.S Can you tell? It took me only 13 minutes to write this blog! Procrastinator, or what? =P Oh and I stayed home today because finals are tomorrow and I was starting to get sick, dont wanna be delusional during finals.

Essay Writing

Honestly, I've been writing essay's involving a thesis for years, just didn't call it a thesis. I did however learned how to do concrete details and such and commentary is a bit hard but I learned it too. I don't have a whole lto to say on essay stuff or do I really feel accomplished sicne I've been writing stories and  expository essays since 1st grade. Book essays are tough for me though because I dont analyze a story normally, I predict what will probably happen (Usually correct, shows I read too much) but don't really go in depth into the story unless it's emotions ecause i feel the characters emotions in stories as I read them. 

I feel that my commentarry is going to be a nightmare to do because sometimes I don't have a whole lot to say about a subject or just not familiar with it. I feel this is because when I see the story my view is a bit skewed with my own priblems and such, If I were angry I'd probably be rather sadistic with my commentary, or if I was sad I would probably doing worst possible scenario sort of thing.

Summer Reading

Summer reading? And name only two books? Over the summer i tend to read probably over 40 books out of sheer boredom and basically a way to watch T.V, in my head. The first book in my head, I will point out is a series I have been following since 2002, the warriors series a new book is coming out this summer I believe and I intend to read it. I read these books because they are very visual oriented and is like watching HD TV in my head because they're so clear. The second book is of course probably going to be a manga series, I don't know which but I do know I will be reading them.

Dreams and Premoniations Assignment

Wow... this'll be one assignment I wont really hate, I'll be totally honest here, I've had premonition dreams since I was three, they occur very frequently and ALWAYS correct down to the date and time of which they occur, there is a catch though, I forget them as soon as I wake up and don't remember them till they occur, it sucks and I hate it because I could've prevented quite a few past disasters had I remembered them. I'm getting off track here, I can't per say I have felt a feeling of foreboding but I can tell you my instincts are usually quite good at telling me a threat is looming in the near future. I would have to say I follow Romeo more when it comes to dreams, Though I do not remember them each premonition leaves lasting imprints on me and have changed how I perceive the world and react to things.

It's been sometime since I've read Romeo's view on dreams but I do know he doesn't mock them as Mercutio  (My favorite character!) seems to do. I cannot say I like Romeo's view a whole lot though, it's not very realistic to remember such dreams and do nothing about them. I don't know anyone else who's as sensitive to stuff like this as I am so i don't really know how someone else would treat it, but my point of view is if you can do something about it, you should probably be doing it. There really isn't a whole lot of things I can say about dreams but there is many things I can say about my Nightmares.


See, for me I don't have nightmares unless I am REALLY sick and almsot delusional, from the few times I've actually reached that point, I have derived that my nightmares are in fact always about my deepest and most hidden phobias and they're usually mixed with my very vivid imagination and a touch of premonition. I once had a dream when I was sick that I couldn't breathe unless my heart stopped beating, and so whenever it beat I stopped breathing and when in between beats it was i was breathing so it was pure torture because my nightmares sometimes get into my real body, i could feel my lungs burning and I think I was staring at something like a white desk. This dream reveals my fear of being unable to breathe, probably stemmed from my asthmatic and lung inflammation and fear of them killing me. Rationally I highly doubt that'll happen unless I seriously overexert myself which is rare since I have a high stamina in things not involving running. Ok hope you like this Mrs. Gilman =D I did my best and I am not particularly fond of telling of my nightmares because they're usually pretty gruesome =(
 
Ok then picture time and a quote! Oh and Enjoy the new music!

The problem with life is there's no background music.

R&J instance

Ok, this isn't really an instance in real life but in a lot of TV Shows or books Ive heard stuff referring to Romeo and Juliet like "Ok Romeo, enough hitting on me." Or something along those lines. I also notice that lots of people are referring to it indirectly constantly and some probably aren't aware of it. There is even some apparel named after them too! They're usually used to refer to romantic stuff or flirting and sometimes tragic ends and I think that its kind of annoying because I hear lines like that a lot

Shirt: Clicky click click click!
Not Gonna post a lot today moods kinda sour just the assignment and a picture 'cause I found a cool one!  

English Skits

Well hello kittys and cattys. I think my fave thing to do a skit on is the fight of sorts that Pip and Drummle has. I think it's 'cause the way it is narrated is just beyond hilarious to me and I cant figure out why but something of it just seems to scream funny at me. So it mainly takes place in coffee shop at Pip's home town, and at first they try their best to ignore each other and its quite hilarious how childish they both are in the argument. Drummle does one thing Pip pretty much copy's him for the most part. This takes place in Chapter 43.

Then, lets head waaaay back.To the very beginning when pip first meets Magwitch. I really like that scene despite its dreary and depressing feeling about it. They're both in the churchyard and Magwitch simply known as the convict at the time threatens to "kill" Pip if he doesn't get him some food and a file for his shackles.

Then there is chapter 31 in which Pip and Herbet go see the failtastic play of Whopsle's just the play itself since it would be so very funny to see to the part where Mr. Whopsle is taken out to do dinner but not at the dinner it'd probably be too long, Anyways what happens is the play is so bad Pip and Herbert are embarrassed and try to leave inconspicuously, which they fail at since they get nabbed and go under the stage pretty much and talk to Whopsle. This in Chapter 31

New Years Resolution

Okay, my problem is, I don't understand myself, or why I do some stuff that I do, like why do I read as much as I do, or why do I feel hungry so often? What causes me to act one way or act another, sometimes I act angry when I'm not feeling it at all, sometimes I cry and act upset when there's nothing there but the emptiness. What drives me to make myself an outcast the way I do (Or did, I think I've stopped trying to do that). What inspired me to do my new years resolution however was a documentary on anorexic people and why they do that. The symptoms were exactly how I acted in fifth grade, but I never became anorexic, what caused me to flip all of a sudden, I think it went back even earlier than that, at 9 years old I suddenly became a very mean person.

My goal is to do a psychoanalysis of myself over the course of the year, and make it into a journal, this journal will contain theories of what causes me to do some things and what causes me to act one way and write down what caused. I got a notebook for Christmas (Vey cool looking thing!) I can use that for it.



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